Clear Waters

I am the anchor, 

that brings down the light of the day.

I am the savior, 

who awaits congratulatory pay. 

I am the victim, 

happily forcing the hand into blame. 

I am all of this, 

with out report, 

because we hide the wells of ourselves, 

because we contort, 

because we can not, will not

control the beast that is our 

unmanageable -

ungovernable -

untamable -

and most importantly-

unloveable love.

The water is clear, 

I see right through.

I’m only alive, 

when Im drowning in you. 

I Knocked So Loud

I knocked so loud,
it threw our backs out.

It seemed like years before you answered the door, 

Carrying replies like butter knives; 

Dull but nevertheless, unkind.

Come in, you eventually said. 

I stood outside in the cold.

You know me, I need more than one

polite invite. 

Come into me, you said,
Im ready to receive.  

Come into the room

where the piano goes untouched-

Showing me your new paintings,
 I didn't say much, but I meant, “WOW”

I want to be her this afternoon; 

Nude and owned by you.

You know me, I need to be drawn

out. 

Do not keep me inside for too long, 

I will walk away with the longest legs, 

they won’t even touch the ground of your shade. 

You will have to turn inside out, 

You will have to force me down, 

You will have to shoot me up like an arrow,
  outside of yourself.